6-03-2015
Friday
21:06
A very colorful and joyous Holi, first of all. I'd been away for long. Life has become a lot more busier than it used to be back in the day when I first made this blog. Things have changed, and as a repercussion, so have my priorities.
Now, what is bothering me so much that I finally took some time out of my "oh-so-busy" schedule? It's about a guy (big whoop!). I met him in college, when one of my friends gave me a whisper about him thinking I'm cute. Well, I went nuts. I had to know who was this person, who liked me? Me: a complete moron looking, chubby and quite a times misinterpreted as short outspoken girl. And I hence, stalked him on the internet and instantaneously developed a crush on him.
Being the gutsy and overconfident girl I am, I went on to talk to him and got my heart split into two pieces when made to realise that he likes me as a "sister". I was hurt on some level and thus I made myself completely oblivious to the fact the I actually liked him. He and I became friends as a consequence, started talking on weekly basis.
Now, it wasn't until last night when he asked me if I knew that he still likes me. I made the topic go away in few seconds by bring emphasis on something else. I knew if I listened to him for one second, my feelings for him might rekindle again, and now I so don't want that to happen. Then, he, being the shy guy he is, kept on throwing a few clues on how he might "fall" for me, if I don't stop being that charming. And to my surprise, this very guy who used to leave chatting with me abruptly by saying goodnight so that he could talk to somebody else, and I would leave him alone, stayed up chatting with me till 5:30 in the morning and didn't even say goodnight until I said we should sleep. I was shocked.
We talked about everything and I didn't give away a clue that I like him. I know he likes some chick from our college and hence, I didn't make any move. But when he woke up we started chatting again. We've been inseparable for the past 55 something hours. Am I to believe that he likes me? If he doesn't why would he stay up so late chatting with me? and if he does, does he like me just as much as that other chick he likes? Or, am I just making a mountain out of a molehill?
