To gain your heart's desire.

4:07 PM
22nd July 2014
Tuesday

This is not really my ideal time to post a blog entry but its getting harder for me to keep this inside and I need an outlet, & what's better than writing it? I mean I love writing. Yeah, sure, people don't particularly enjoy reading it, but then again since when did I care about people.

This entry is related to my last entry. I've been on a roller coaster of emotions ever since realized what are emotions. I get too close, or I'm in solitary. Either way I stay on the extreme ends of emotional spectrum. Well, that's me! But this particular someone forced me to stay in between these extremities of emotional spectrum, in other words, to be normal. Now, I tell you being normal isn't easy because I've been abnormal for a major portion of my life. But I did it. I waited. Controlled my damned emotions from overflowing.

Its been months since I started being with this particular person. Different, charming, adorable and most of all generous. Too much generous. Carelessly generous. Never ever did anything to hurt me. And today I did the biggest of all. I hurt him. I was scared. Didn't know how to end things with someone. Never did. Always been the "dumped" person. How can I end things without hurting, its collateral! I had to figure a way out. But no matter what I tried today, just to make it go smoother, things went that only that worse. And it just ended. There. I gave up, in my senses, the one thing that I just desired more than anything a few months ago. I don't know. And now I feel George Bernard. I really do. I wrote it. In my blog. I guess a year ago. Can't believe I actually got to experience it! Life is so wise, man. Just like master Oogway. I love Oogway, man.

And that said, I would wind up with this entry with obviously this, there are two tragedies in life, one is to lose your heart's desire and other is to gain it. And I sure as hell gained mine.

PS : I cleared second sem without any graces. My happiness is beyond the scope of this entry :P